Feeling

Bismillah.

Masa mula-mula posting wad Neuro surgical, I am so stress bila tengok HO/MO yang macam kerek gila tak pandang kiri kanan.

Kak W pernah cakap yang neurosurgeon mmg macam tu sombong2 sikit, kena ada action dia, ada ego dia. Dia kan bedah otak, mana boleh main-main. Tapi masalahnya, yg specialist elok je senyum. Yang MO/HO ni tak tahu apa masalah.

And haritu terserempak dengan one of our ex HO, jalan ke arah lif. Borak-borak dengan kawan dia, siap gelak bagai. Eh ehh, tahu gelak? Dulu kat neuro muka takde expression langsung. Cakap dengan patient pon macam takde nada.

*I still have no idea*

Tak lama lepastu dekat wad situ jugak, sorang lagi ex HO who currently on CTS (cardiothoracic surgery) posting, yang dulu macam busy sangat tak pernah tegur jugak, tetiba approached me.

'Physio, physio??' Pointed to me.

'Aah physio, tapi saya tak jaga CTS Dr'

'Awak jaga mana? Neuro?'

' Yup'

' Good luck ehh'

Then slowly I wonder, is it too bad during your Neuro surgical posting, Dear HOs? Hmm?

......

Haritu, ada 2 orang doktor Orthopedic datang nak cuci luka patient. They are so nice. Sopan je panggil Staff Nurse mintak sediakan barang-barang prior to the procedure. The way they thanked the nurse, was sooo baikkkk. I was there sebab baru nak start exercise. I dont think they are HOs because they seems to have a lot of time, they were not rushing. But I'm not sure whether the MO does all this cuci luka, bukak backslab. I wanted to see what they are going to do. But I didn't know how to approach. I'm not close to the doctors as (mostly) doctors in my ward are not friendly.

Then, I just tr my luck.

' Dr. Can I be here, to see?'

' Yaa, sure!' 

Basically it's nothing. They just looked at the jahitan bercantum nicely or not. Pastu dia cabut benang, keluarkan backslab and bandage tangan patient. 

But I learnt something.

The way they are working, talking to the staffs, it shows sincerity. They are enjoying their work. 

I want to have that. 

I pray that all of us are enjoying whatever we do, and perhaps it can benefits others. Aamin.

         You can't control your emotion, but you can always control your action - Hlovate. 

Counting blessing :)